“Stop starring all over” she said.
Trying to get me talked by getting me the Diwali
ka chivda and I was least interested in it.
“How could I be starring all over..? It’s not even grammatically
correct?” i added trying to be normal even though I was very much tired.
“is there even a sentence of that kind?” I asked to
the only other annoyed person and that happen to be to the lady sitting in
front of me. I knew a movie like ‘the martian’ is not the one that you could
watch with your special ‘anyone!!’. I was anyways late by almost a month in
watching it. To add to the woes I had to drag myself all the way to wadala to
see it. My disappointment grew when she insisted to tag along
“I never knew you liked to watch movie with me?” I asked,
“Talk to me, you wanted na..”She leaned ahead on the
chair and answered.
“Not everything is supposed to happen your way
always.” I replied
“I already said that I am sorry” she replied.
“Oh please stop this sorry rant of yours, and I don’t
understand why are you saying sorry?” I asked.
“If there isn’t anything then why are you so fidgety
and closed right now? “ I replied.
“look I really wanted to watch this movie… alone and this fidgety
behaviour you are supposedly seeing, is me pulling back to myself… as I finding
it hard explain to myself, why the space I created for you remain always empty.”
I answered.
Even I was shocked how smoothly and fluently this sentence
came out. Maybe it was the starbucks coffee that finally kicked in. for a while
there was silence on the other end of the table as she aimlessly stirred.
“See moving that straw round and round would neither
make you coffee warmer nor sweeter” deliberately sounding arrogant.
“Previously too you weren’t willing to come, so it won’t
surprise me if you wish to leave.” I said standing up.
“But maine aisa kab bola.. I know it’s not about the
movie” she followed.
“You never said it directly but it’s visible and you
are damn right that it’s not about the movie, it about all the excuses and
reasons that you give.” I answered.
“Are woh toh ekdum se plan ban gaya tha.. I told you
na!!”She was starting to explain.
“Dekho mujhe aise behaviour expect karne ki aadat ho
gayi hai, people sometimes take me so much for granted that at time I am
invisible to them and I am perfectly habitual to it…..” I calmly interrupted her.
“…and this closing in reaction is because I wasn’t expecting
this from you…again” I finished.
It’s really tough to see such a person in such
opposite situation. You would want to convince yourself that it isn’t what it
looks like but you are not sure if the other person too wants the same way too.
“plz don’t say like that.. mujhe acha nai lag raha
hai” she replied sadly.
I never thought that I would sound so rude to a
person that I though was special to me. But the thing is I just couldn’t think
any more. Maybe I was just too mentally tired to think more on it. And end up
find a conclusion otherwise of what you have concluded. Especially when you
turn your world head over heels to find time for this person and they give you
the same stupid “busy” excuse. Still you argue with yourself much more before
you argue with this person to understand the reason behind his/her excuse and
comes up to nothing.
“I always tried to find 10 reasons to be with you,
talk to you, see you and you always gave me one reason why you couldn’t .” I said
and it was almost time for the movie.
“I am sorry, and I am saying sorry not for what I said
or how I am behaving, but because I value you more than this. But unlike you I am
not only admitting it but showing it as well.” I concluded
I tore the other half of ticket and kept it under
her mobile and said
“Find me inside if and when you feel like talking… otherwise
I know you will find your way out as you don’t like to be dependent on anyone
for anything”. I said and walked briskly towards screen 3.
Concluding part coming soon………………………
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