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“so you wanted
to wish me happy diwali?” she asked.
I suddenly felt a wave of chill run down entire
body. Even though the car AC was turned off it felt very cold and as I sat next
to the driver seat I noticed sometime back she was combing her hair while
driving the car which made me feel a bit odd not to mention surprising and
unusual too.
Now here I was facing her with open hands. Maybe she
was expecting such a thing. So neither she backed out nor hesitated and as soon
I gestured asking her hands she promptly acknowledged and landed her soft small
hand in mine. And this was the very reason why I felt waves after waves of
chill going up and down my body instantly dropping my temperature and I could
feel my hands going cold and numb instantly
“What are you
doing? why are you so nervous?”she asked.
“I
don’t know and yes I am a bit nervous” I said and instantly
my mouth went dry and the nervousness was so intense that the dryness went from
my mouth to throat in matter of seconds. I had barely finished the sentence and
I was already feeling thirsty.
As soon as I held her hand she said “you are cold”.
“I
know ” I said.
The other day when we meet after a very long time I was
avoiding making an eye contact with her. I was scared about what would happen
if…… I was just too scared to think anything beyond that “if”. She kept
complaining and pinching me hoping to make an eye contact but I was all over
the place. She had the most intoxicating eyes. But now there was no escaping
and I said to myself lets face it and conquer it. I gently squeezed her hands
so that she stays focused on me and looked straight into her eyes. At that moment all I could feel was my
thumping heart beat, my chilled numb hands and her sweaty palm as she turned of
her car and turned left facing me.
“thank
you so very much for listening to me and I am also aware of the fact that I wasn’t
making eye contact with you even though you constantly kept provoking me to do
the same..” I started and trust me it was not at all
easy to grab hold of my thoughts and words once I held those hands and looked
into those intoxicating brownish black eyes all at the same time. I knew this
would happen hence I mugged up everything that I wanted to tell her.
So now I took a long deep breath in and continued “but I didn’t want to ruin the importance of
this moment that day. You listening to whatever I had to say meant a lot to me
and I am feeling very light and much more comfortable with myself…”
I noticed her smiling with a beautiful look and so I
smiled back and continued “….and I also
want to say that you have very beautiful eyes and I like them a lot”. I noticed
she was blushing and then she asked “haven’t
you seen my eyes before?”
“
I had…. but its just that things around me were so messed up that it had
covered my vision for quiet a while. I might well say that I had just forgotten
how they looked” I answered and suddenly everything was
fine around me. It was calm inside and all there nervousness was gone as if
somehow I broke all the shackles and then I continued “…..and believe you are very special and god gives these kind of eyes
to very few and special people and they are very lucky as well….”
“
no… no its not like that everyone is special for GOD and…”she
interrupted shaking her head.
“listen…
just listen” I interrupted her back and brought her
attention back towards my eyes and continued “…this is what I believe in and I know he makes them with his very
hands and with lot of care also makes sure to look after them in every step of
life. And this kind of eyes helps him to find you guys easily out of millions
of people like me who came out of an assembly line I guess” I finished
laughing and concluded saying “that’s why i have black eyes maybe, and
deep down even you know that”
“what
that black eyed guys like you come out of a assembly line?”
she laughed and asked.
I am not sure what was going on in her mind at that
time because she was starring right back trying to hide something. But when
such an eye connection happens there is not much one can hide.
“nahi…nahi
re.. every tom, dick and harry has black
eyes and even you know deep down that you are special and I can tell you how
lucky I am to have you in my life in whichever way you are”
I said and noticed her small lips stretching to its extremities and trying to
reach her ears. This eventually made smile too.
“you
are so stupid… I feel like hitting you right now… tabse kya kar rahe the”
and blushed a bit.
“can
I hug you?” she asked and quickly leaned towards me
without waiting for my response and grabbed me. For the very first time in my
life it felt peaceful and complete.
I felt whole, I felt satisfied, I felt calm and accomplished.
No wonder its called the ‘ The jadoo ki jhappi’. I wanted to stay liked that
forever and I know the feeling was mutual. You could hear the heart beat, fell
the lungs breathing and smell the fragrance of body. Not yours but the person
you are embracing. It’s the ultimate and purists form of bonding I think.
I took advantage of the situation and planted 3 kiss
on her, 2 on either cheeks and 1 on the forehead. That broke our hug and I found
her looking at me with a surprised and question marked expression on her face. I
thought she might through a slap right across my face.
“I
don’t want to keep any regrets” I said putting her
hair behind her ears.
“so
do I” she replied and kissed me the same way back.
“so
this is how you wish Happy Diwali? You are really really stupid… I feel like hitting you right now” she
said with her tiny smile.
There are some relations that don’t need any name. They
cannot be defined are bracketed. They could only be felt and expressed. That’s what
some people call ‘kitabon wala pyar’
Inspired from a documentary film “meherooni”.
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