Happy chrissmus

 
‘‘Mamma! Why is he so dirty?’’
A low toned sweet voice reached my ears. It was late evening around 8.45 pm. Not to mention it was December and it was cold and cracking as hell as it usually around this time and the roads were disserted. I was stuck because my bike happened to get dried the thing that happens when you overrate your biker average near dhantoli and Yashwant stadium waiting Santa Claus in form of friend and petrol in form of gift.
“Mamma!!”
I looked behind there stood a black colored Hyundai accent having some Mumbai number. I looked inside to see a dejected driver in late 30’s, a heavily make –up lad looking more like a penguin wearing a Punjabi salwar and porcelain all over her face, a not-so-good-looking girl much younger then other two (may be daughter) keeping her eye grilled at her BLACKBERRY I suppose and a cute looking little boy glancing out of the window. The father got out for changing a puncher tire and no one else budges. The little boy was starring out side and querying his mother constantly.
”what’s happened Joey? Stop troubling mamma”
“wy is he sho dirty an shad?” he asked
“I don’t know beta they are poor I guess” said the lady giving a disgruntled look.
“Then how come he is wearing you school sweater didi. You said it’s the best school and all the best kids come to study there?”
It was a blue colored sweater of a reputed school in Nagpur. A bit dirty with stains of oil and dirt so much so that there was no difference in color sidewalk and his cloths.
“Maybe” she ignored.
The poor boy was shivering and smiling in his sweater which was very big and over size for him.
“But it’s all dirty and look it has holes in it too it wont keep him warm enough, can I give him mine?” Joey asked curiously pulling down the glass down completely and with half of his body outside.
“Baby stop talking nonsense and get inside the car” girl shouted.
“Why is he playing with tire didi”
The girl got frustrated and shouted “mom Joey is deliberately troubling me please tell him to behave…he even tried to hide my shoes at riya aunty place……..”
Hell I didn't understood a thing what she said after that because it was some different language.
“baby behave and don't you give any thing to that stupid fellow…” the penguin aunty shouted and as usual he totally ignored and lady's attention shifted to the uncle who had done changing tire by now and was enjoying a smoke.
“….and hurry-up darling you already waited at riyas place long enough and...” she said
“don’t you give me that shit…” he shouted an interrupted angrily “….I know that…its done now shove yourself into car we are ready to roll” he continued.
As all were ready to roll on “CHARIOT OF ANGEL” as written on the car Joey sneaked a moment and bent out of his side of window passed on a little toy to the poor child winked and smiled at him and whispered quietly ”Happpy chrissmus..”.
The poor boy ran to a shed and brought a broken toy for him instead as the CHARIOT OF ANGEL was about to fly.
I can bet on a thousand bucks the poor boy didn't understood the meaning of either words but the action brought a big smile on his face. The best moment of the entire evening came for me in quick succession and would have made the evening awesome for the poor boy perhaps the best Christmas gift.
It mad me realize that we always knew how to love. You don’t teach a new born baby how to love the sheer innocence and unbiased love that it gives to everyone is the best example of it. To continue to do it is the difficult task as you might have concluded from the above conversation. Richness and wealth of a person is known by who rich is his heart and not by bank accounts and car size. May be that’s the reason Jesus Christ chose to be borned in a manger in a stable so that every one can reach him and not only kings and the wealthy ones or not poor ones which includes no façade and vanity. I believe that the real meaning of Christmas to be so simple in heart that everyone can reach you. A gift of Christmas gift not necessarily be a Rolex, Iphone or Porsche it could be a welcome smile, a warm hug, an evening, 10 min on phone or even an SMS matters equal if not more and it automatically brings smile on peoples face.
You know people often tend to find the spirit of Christmas in god and prayers but it truly is already exsisting within themselves you know as they say if you really want to enjoy Christmas is by trying to make it enjoyable to someone else and not indulging in booze and party. Because I think there is no bigger joy in seeing someone happy because of you and its a feeling that really boosts up your spirit.
Happy Christmas to all readers and happy New Year
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Of RIGHT turns … and wrongs!!

It was a very chilled evening of a cool December day. It had rained and mostly it was drizzle and it had happened not for the first time during that evening. She was standing on a red signal very much covered in winter clothing from head to toe though the fashion quotient was still very much included. She needed to take a right from that signal. She could clearly see a white colored maruti Suzuki Estillo in front of her. There was nothing special and unique about that car but only a sticker of lord ganesha. The guy on the wheels too wanted to take a right from that signal and was giving a right turn indicator and it was blinking right in front of her face as it does.
Somewhere within her mind she felt that it was mocking her maybe laughing at her and teasing her. Of all the living creatures in this world she felt a stupid indicator was making fun and making her feel embarrassed and bad. Although she knew it was just the way you think of things but she never thought her mind would come up with such a cynical example to relate itself to such an unvalued and unobserved process. She removed her glasses, she looked down, closed her eyes shock her head in utter disappointment rubbed her eyes and charm from her face seemed had just vanished instantly.. Who can imagine that just a blinking stupid car indicator causes turmoil in ones head and automatically make her bow her head down and make you feel embarrassed? Maybe it reminded her about some dejection or she might have felt partly cheated somewhere sometime.
Those 77sec on ravi nagar sq left her image in my mind. I went into deep thought regarding what I observed that orange indicator and that sweet girl. Its one of those incidents that could be interpreted in different ways but it was very much visible on her and all over her face. My elder brothers and mothers word ran through my head “LIFE TAKE ITS REVENGE ON YOU IN WORST POSSIBLE WAY AND IN WORST POSSIBLE TIME”. Again some of my observations could be wrong but not all. Maybe it was the sequence of events that happened that day eventually culminated into such an incident for me. It seriously makes you think what you have, had and want. A failed expectation, trust or a broken dream makes you think that your life is field with mistakes and your ability to think and do the right and wrong gets affected dramatically. You are forced to think that even all your right decisions could have been wrong.
People say that success is just a pat on the back. If they say so then failures are like cuts in mind. These cuts may be difficult to heal and it pain is far very much more and irony is that you see the wounds from outside. It become even worst when you see someone else in the same situation and you are unable to empathies them. If life is like a tree and failure is grounds for it then success is like sunshine and true strength of a tree lies in depths of roots. Too much expectation never ever helps the cause. Lesser the expectation simpler is life. I think a normal life is not too much to ask for but it’s unto use to define “a normal life”. But I feel world is a small alley which is already narrow and it’s getting even narrower by day and you are always being pushed in a crowded queue. Where you have two options either fall and see others walk over you or be a part of mob.
If life can be one big holiday and a best teacher of all then life could be the worst punishment too that one can get. It’s just what one of my friends told me at he end of the day “that’s life” always selfish and ready to screw you and I felt very sad hearing this from her. Too bad that the meaning of life has changed so drastically and it has become so hollow that even a car indicator mocks it sometimes……

Diwali for me….

I believe the festival of lights is very happy occasion in and one of the most anticipated events of the year. Nothing can match the intensity of gratification that it brings in ones life. It brings a rejuvenated wave in ones life and people like to spend time with family in malls and markets. This surge of happiness is the main reason why this festival is called as festival of lights where light is symbolic representation of happiness. It also stands for triumph of good over evil.
It’s obvious and natural for us to be attracted towards the light and glow of life. Thats why the brightness of this festival attracts all. You know I feel that the brightness of this festival sometimes is so BRIGHT that it sometimes shadows the gray elements. I think the main aim of this festival is to drive away the grayness and it can be achieved by bringing people into light and taking it to them. But sometimes the intensity of brightness is so strong that people who are habitual of staying in darkness gets frightened by the intensity itself. Acceptance in the correct way is very important. The moral of the story is that darkness should be removed and not the wounded of it. 
I also think that to remove darkness the light has to travel to enlighten such wounded. If you look at the irony the universe is dark and the light has to travel through it. Similarly to defeat the wrong, right has to extend it arms because in default condition the universe itself is dark and light propagates through it.
What you believe is nothing for you could be a dream for someone in this world. It’s the way the world acts. What you have may be insufficient for you but for someone it could be his entire life. My elder brother once told me that “LIFE IS UNFAIR”. Its true and everyone sometime or other felt the same. So I think to attain balance we give something to others and take something from them. I mean I know what I have and what I don’t have and it’s applicable to everyone in this world. So why not share what you have with those who don’t have and enjoy vice versa and fill the emptiness within our minds. Asking for big favor is useless and more aligned towards materialistic wants.
So my diwali message to you all is give what you have in excess to others and it’s not restricted to food or clothes. I mean TIME can also do wonders. Looking to it in a different way is that you find time to pray to GOD and ask for his blessing on that very day of festival so why not spend some time with orphan, special and under-privileged children or even your household help and make them feel special then even GOD won’t mind if you prayed a little less to him. Spending a little less on crackers and using that money to buy some clothes and chocolates for children would be much more appreciated by GOD and he would forgive me for praying little less to him. I know a sparkling, smiling face is much brighter than the costliest of firecrackers and that would be the best diwali for me.
Would like to end with
YEH DIN JAHAN ME HAR KAHIN,
BHAR DE ROSHNI KISI KE PYAR KI,
DIL DIL SE JO MILADE, HAR CHEHERA WOH KHILA DE,
RUT LAYE AAJ KHUSHIYON KI.
MERE TUMHARE SAB KE LIYE HAPPY DIWALI,
SARE SITARE USKE LIYE
HAPPY DIWALI.
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Misapprehensions of mind.

No wonder our elders told us that success and failure are two sides of same coin.I absolutely think its very true. The ways you walk in life is so much depends on that coin. I mean your approach for life is so much different if the coin flips in other way rather than your way. If in case of success you barely bother to think the other way around. I don’t want to sound pessimist but if things don't turn out your way then it surely it affects the way you look at things. If People say that hard work is all that is need to achieve success than the weight age of success should be always more than failure. Than how is possible that success and failure are two side of same coin?
I mean I never heard anyone saying “I worked hard for failure…..” showing that it can be rigged.
There is also the saying that “THE GRASS IS GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE”. To be very specific I question the existence of this question. I mean do you really feel that he grass is green on the other side. How much more green is it? Now contradicting this age old phrase is THERE IS NO GRAY IN LIFE EITHER ITS BLACK OR WHITE. If the grass is greener on the other side than the second phrase is a piece of joke.
Just a small skip in rotation of that COIN causes your life becoming as miserable as a hole. Mostly in touch and go cases where the difference between success and failure is very close.
No wonder people go in depression in such cases. The best trick or the line used to cover up it is WHATEVER HAPPENS….HAPPENS FOR GOOD. You might think that I am sounding pessimist but its totally false statement and I totally don’t agree with it.
It’s an open challenge to you all honestly tell me that do you agree with this statement. Because I have many reasons to prove it wrong. Did World War II happen for good?
Invention of steroids, nuclear bomb, was Indira Gandhi killed for good? Did raavan kidnapped sita for good?
I think its like a curtain that is used to cover the mind and create a misconception. To create an illusion that others have succeeded where you have not and its not much difference in handwork or effort just the COIN mentioned above. I think mind of a human can be influenced and can be programmed and reprogrammed very easily and it's this characteristic that results in people saying that “the grass is greener on the other side” and “whatever happens….happens for good”. It just tries to find the least resistive path like current in a network having various resistive paths unless it is faced by one-way path. Then and only then the true strengths of human mind can be understood. These phrases are like sub-programmes which the mind uses where it isn't able to relate itself to practical situation and provide relevant solution. If you relevantly think all the three phrases contradict each others meaning. Like I said these are sub programs. I believe there are no significant meanings of these phrases. Its better not to use them more often….
Depths of depression are very deep and these phrases doesn't provide rationalization to it or help in any way from getting out of it.

A THINK ABOUT RELATIONS

A privilege that we as a developed civilized society enjoy is the right to express feelings.
And it’s considered liberal too. But your view about some one is usually what your image is in that persons mind.

Telling someone truth about how you feel is very dilemmatic situation in life. It’s like a sea you find it easy to see from the shore but fear going into it. It’s a very tricky question I must say because many people fail to give a direct answer to such a question. If you ask this you will find most common answer that it depends on person to person and situation. It’s a very diplomatic answer suggesting that even they never thought of it or still not prepared to answer it. If they are true than they are justifying the fact that a girl has the right to slap a boy in pub coz he is drunk and it’s considered wrong the other way around. I mean the way you react to a certain situation varies from person to person and the ethical adorations of values are not applicable in such case or what?
I know that people say that bonding and attachment are the wheels on which the world goes but if you look at current situation even you would agree that is material centric world and people have become more materialistic today than they were few years back and the space for feeling r gradually reducing amongst our life.
Whenever you present your self to anyone they tend to make an opinion about you. Not to blame anyone but it’s the process governed by the Subconscious mind. Somehow people tend to establish a pre-notation about you and start expecting wrong thing from you. E.g. - your conservative nature is presumed to be your ego. Just for example. So if people say it varies from person to person how can be one so sure how to react to such a situation.
I know even you believe its materialistic world where people have become emotionally so weak that they ultimately live in illusion and have become addicted to various so called “sansarik pralobhann”. They do not want to face the reality because WANTS have overpowered NEEDS. No matter how hard you try to be yourself ultimately the WANTS make you a person that you are not and people marks you by what you want. Similar are other people too. There exist no feeling or bonding in today’s world. If you find someone how can fulfill your WANTS then you interact. But many times it happens that accepting or denying such thing usually creates misunderstandings and raises a big question mark on ones ability to function as an effective human being.
Latest example is about model VIVEKA BABAJEE who committed suicide and wrote in note in her diary that “why can’t you give me a small place in your life?” .
This can be clearly understood from the phrase that
“FIRST IMPRESSION IS LAST IMPRESSION”
If I interpreted it correctly the phrase supports the fact that everyone makes an opinion about you in your first impression and due to default characteristic of human being set a certain sets of expectation from you and till the end those things define you. My pre-notation about you will every time influence my decision about you.
So if I think that some XYZ is egoistic but he/she is not in actual then this phrase it utter nonsense.
So if we stop beating around the bush the core fact is that today’s world is too busy to hear so called “DIL KI BAAT AND JAZBAAT”. Everyone looks for there profit in someway or the other and some where down the line we are losing our identity as human because emotions are the only thing that separates us from machines and robots. The castle of success is built on graves of emotions.
The matter of fact is that in the process of making robots like human we the humans are becoming robots indeed. Life is about fighting, enjoying the victory and learning from defeats but never giving up it’s the ultimate gift by nature so respect it ….
In fond memory of VIVEKA BABAJEE, KULJIT RANDHAWA, NAFISA JOSEPH, NATASHA PARDARI and the beautiful diva PARVEEN BABI.
GOD BLESS THERE SOULS……
plz pay your tributes to there departed soul. May they findwhat they didnt n this world.

Mr. /Ms YOU! Missing in action.

hum jo chal ne lage ....chalne lage hai yeh raaste...

manzil se bhehetar lagne lage hai yeh raste..

aao kho jaye hum ho jaye hum yun lapata

ha ha milo chale jana kahan na ho pata....

You all must be very aware with this song

the song shows journey of two unknown people from some place to other place going along there way and enjoying it.

There is a saying that

“LIFE IS NOT SPECIAL... SIMPLE THINGS MAKE IT SPECIAL".

People like you and me are very simple at least I think that I am simple in life and there is not much special about me as a personality wise. But I believe that my personality in not my own personality but it’s the impression and reflection of all the people that I met in my life till now. I think it’s the same with you guys as well. The people who shape your personality are mostly friends n family. It like a stone lying on the river bed. When it’s thrown in the river it’s out of shape and its shape can’t be defined but it gets it shape by the flowing water of the river. Friends we are just like that stone.

Just like the words of song

When we meet we where all unknown having one aim in life to complete engineering… thoda darr ke… thoda anjaan ban ke….but we were not alone we had many kids under same circumstances. Situations were tough but after some time we were so habitual that we enjoyed more of the present and thought less of the future. Eventually we felt that this should never end and this life should stay forever with those every close friends who supported us in our good and bad times. We were so lost in each other that we forgot the ultimate truth the one day we would be separated.

That day we would miss a whole lot of things …..

I’ll miss sitting on the steps near W-22, the wind flowing on G-floor, the “mehefil” on the E Floor sq, the way other students looked at us when we sat in F-06 like visitors see animals in zoo. F floor ki gallery se CS ki ladkiyo ko taapna, F-23 where we were king and free to do what we wanted, Maggie party, standing outside the class room and signaling our roll number inside taki koi proxy laga sake, throwing paper-planes in class. Creating havoc in canteen shouting our dept name on top of our voices, kisi khubsurat ladki se bat karne ke liye dosto se “JUGAD” karna and to consult to friends before talking to her, late night studies and mostly baki gaon walo ki halat pata karna exam se ek raat phele and exam ke bad milkar university ko kosna n hugging friends like it’s the end of world.

I am gonna miss all of this real badly. But the most important thing that I am going to miss is… MYSELF IN ACTION! Not only myself, am going to miss all my friends in action doing all those things because I would have been incomplete without them.

This is the dilemma of such special moments- the less you have it, the more you want it and the more you have it the harder it gets to part from them.

I believe there is a huge difference between travelling and journey.

Travelling is when you sole aim is to go from one point to other. Journey is when while going from one phase of life to other whilst enjoying all the moment that come along it this phase that we are having is a that journey which we might not value now but once it over and when you try to look back on it trying to relive it you will find it like a TRAFFIC. So desperately wanting to live it again but failing to do so. I am not trying to scare anybody but someone said to me ki “ dosto ke sath 3 saal kaise nikal gaye pata bhi nahi chala!!” and one said “abhi se senti mat karo yaar …1 saal baki hai.” this shows the state of mind fearing that one day this would happen and its inevitable.

What I would say that enjoy so much that you should have no regret that you missed anything or you limited yourself. Some wise man said that” UNLESS YOU DO IT YOU WONT NOW IT” because at the end of it all it would be Mr. /Ms YOU! MISSING IN ACTION.

Dedicated to all those how made my simple life into a special journey.

Please leave a comment on your experiences and things that you'll remember...

I gazed in her eyes.

I gazed in her eyes.

It’s been almost three years since we knew each other and today the day came when it was time for us to get parted. we used to meet not very often but may be 3-4 times a month for not more than 5mins since both were busy but Still I assumed that we were good friends. It all started by trying to make new friends and gelling in new group since I was new.

I noticed that she as a girl apart from rest of the group very bubbly funny and more than that curious. She had eyes like sun rising from the horizon (the best way I can describe them) and even pretty smile .it was immediately my minds reaction that” we could be friends". There was something in her eyes that fascinated me...

I was praying that at least she notice me and she did after a few days only during a palm reading session by one of my friend. Eventually I started talking to her knowing that she was very curious and bubbly. When we were first talking "I GAZED IN HER EYES" and for a moment lost my concentration. It happened suddenly and more than one time. There was this moment where I almost lost the track of the conversation outside E-18. Again there was this moment when I almost caught her starring at me from the far end of the classroom where we were practicing our dance.

We eventually became good friends knowing that she trusted me. But here was something hat kept boggling my mind all those days and stopped me from giving her the RED ROSE that I had bought for her and eventually it landed in that friend’s pocket to who I dropped home that day. Perhaps the fear of rejection or unknown nature of girls I think. I knew almost everything about her and told a lot about myself.

I remember the day when we were sitting in an ice-cream parlor eating ice-cream and I was TRYING to make a tattoo on her wrist (coz it was very sweaty) while doing that "I GAZED IN HER EYES"(accidentally) and I could feel her mind (shayad mera vehem ho!!) trying to say something to me which I don’t know I understood correctly or not. But it said something. It felt like infinity and same thing happened at the time of Christmas. Again trying to say something and I knowing it ignored and thought on it for days to come. The naughtiness and simplicity in eyes occupied my mind.

Then the day came when it was time for us to get parted. We had talked a lot and all were having dinner. Knowing what would happen I avoided making eye contact with her. If did not for more than 3sec. and I was caught she asked "tere mood kyu kharab hai?" I nodded no and said nothing. She said "2nd year me kitna maza aya tha dance practise me" I said "ha". But eventually “I GAZED IN HER EYES". And again felt the same thing. They were sad and again I lost track of conversation and was numbed for sometime. I think I read the mind and thoughts were exchange without speaking. She was afraid to loss a very friends and fear of future and wanted that thing should never change. Coincidently those were my thoughts as well and I think she knew it. I felt that she wanted to here something from me or keep talking to me just like I wanted. I think even she knew it.

i think we communicated a lot and we met hardly in three years perhaps because we had same fears in mind. I remember her saying "MUJHE BHULNA MAT!!” again my thoughts her words and I replied “DEFINATLY NAHI BHULUGA!!". I don't know weather she felt the same way or had the same thoughts like me but YES but i felt the same way every time I met her and "I GAZED IN HER EYES".

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.
Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye...
tu jaane naa....