I gazed in her eyes.

I gazed in her eyes.

It’s been almost three years since we knew each other and today the day came when it was time for us to get parted. we used to meet not very often but may be 3-4 times a month for not more than 5mins since both were busy but Still I assumed that we were good friends. It all started by trying to make new friends and gelling in new group since I was new.

I noticed that she as a girl apart from rest of the group very bubbly funny and more than that curious. She had eyes like sun rising from the horizon (the best way I can describe them) and even pretty smile .it was immediately my minds reaction that” we could be friends". There was something in her eyes that fascinated me...

I was praying that at least she notice me and she did after a few days only during a palm reading session by one of my friend. Eventually I started talking to her knowing that she was very curious and bubbly. When we were first talking "I GAZED IN HER EYES" and for a moment lost my concentration. It happened suddenly and more than one time. There was this moment where I almost lost the track of the conversation outside E-18. Again there was this moment when I almost caught her starring at me from the far end of the classroom where we were practicing our dance.

We eventually became good friends knowing that she trusted me. But here was something hat kept boggling my mind all those days and stopped me from giving her the RED ROSE that I had bought for her and eventually it landed in that friend’s pocket to who I dropped home that day. Perhaps the fear of rejection or unknown nature of girls I think. I knew almost everything about her and told a lot about myself.

I remember the day when we were sitting in an ice-cream parlor eating ice-cream and I was TRYING to make a tattoo on her wrist (coz it was very sweaty) while doing that "I GAZED IN HER EYES"(accidentally) and I could feel her mind (shayad mera vehem ho!!) trying to say something to me which I don’t know I understood correctly or not. But it said something. It felt like infinity and same thing happened at the time of Christmas. Again trying to say something and I knowing it ignored and thought on it for days to come. The naughtiness and simplicity in eyes occupied my mind.

Then the day came when it was time for us to get parted. We had talked a lot and all were having dinner. Knowing what would happen I avoided making eye contact with her. If did not for more than 3sec. and I was caught she asked "tere mood kyu kharab hai?" I nodded no and said nothing. She said "2nd year me kitna maza aya tha dance practise me" I said "ha". But eventually “I GAZED IN HER EYES". And again felt the same thing. They were sad and again I lost track of conversation and was numbed for sometime. I think I read the mind and thoughts were exchange without speaking. She was afraid to loss a very friends and fear of future and wanted that thing should never change. Coincidently those were my thoughts as well and I think she knew it. I felt that she wanted to here something from me or keep talking to me just like I wanted. I think even she knew it.

i think we communicated a lot and we met hardly in three years perhaps because we had same fears in mind. I remember her saying "MUJHE BHULNA MAT!!” again my thoughts her words and I replied “DEFINATLY NAHI BHULUGA!!". I don't know weather she felt the same way or had the same thoughts like me but YES but i felt the same way every time I met her and "I GAZED IN HER EYES".

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.
Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye...
tu jaane naa....